Staying

I have decided to stay in L.A. for yet another year without going home. The reasoning is because I WONT go home again until i succeed. Two pretty decent auditions tomorrow. One for a Feature film. I will see what will come of it

Writers Block

It's over. I am back writing ballz deep into this thing!

Mediocrity

Today I had two major auditions. One of them was for a series pilot for ABC. I had a lo to say about this subject. But All I can say is. I NEED A FREAKIN BREAK. I can't keep spinning my wheels in this abyss of me mediocrity

Rock

This has been an eventful week. Landed a role in a short film that I auditioned for two weeks ago. I am not sure what character I will be playing but screw it. Then have a major audition for a pilot on ABC. I never get too high or too low. This could be my problem. I drown my emotions too much. I see them as weakness when it is what makes us human. I rarely get excited and in this situation I try not to allow myself to reach a sense of anticipation (once again sign of weakness). I have to learn to let go. I have spent a large number of my years on earth trying to be an android. A rock.

Last Min.

I woke u this morning about 11am. Groggy for some reason. My phone had gone off about three times but it was from a blocked number. First of all I don't answer blocked numbers. Sec. I don't hear my phone when i am asleep. I noticed that i have an email for an audition. Most of the time I get a days notice at least so I almost ignored it. Turns out the Audition was at 11:20. No show just brushed my teeth (DON'T JUDGE ME), and ran out of the house. All that i said at the audition was. Do you want any change sir. LOL. Good times

I am sitting here staring at blank pages. I have been blocked for bout 2 months now. TWO months. i have been trying to write the last 3rd of this stupid script. My words and thoughts are clearly fuckin with me. This thing has been in development for 2.5 years now. EVERYTHING has changed from the characters names to what the hell i am even writing about.

Audition

Finally got an audition. It is for....You guessed it a big black bad guy. 1000 ways to die. I have auditioned for them once before. This will be the first audition that my new agent has gotten me. a positive sign. I didn't submit myself for this audition. My other wonderful aka useless agent never me an audition that I didn't submit myself for.

Honestly I need the cards to fall into place. i will get into that at a later date.