Last Min.

I woke u this morning about 11am. Groggy for some reason. My phone had gone off about three times but it was from a blocked number. First of all I don't answer blocked numbers. Sec. I don't hear my phone when i am asleep. I noticed that i have an email for an audition. Most of the time I get a days notice at least so I almost ignored it. Turns out the Audition was at 11:20. No show just brushed my teeth (DON'T JUDGE ME), and ran out of the house. All that i said at the audition was. Do you want any change sir. LOL. Good times

I am sitting here staring at blank pages. I have been blocked for bout 2 months now. TWO months. i have been trying to write the last 3rd of this stupid script. My words and thoughts are clearly fuckin with me. This thing has been in development for 2.5 years now. EVERYTHING has changed from the characters names to what the hell i am even writing about.

Audition

Finally got an audition. It is for....You guessed it a big black bad guy. 1000 ways to die. I have auditioned for them once before. This will be the first audition that my new agent has gotten me. a positive sign. I didn't submit myself for this audition. My other wonderful aka useless agent never me an audition that I didn't submit myself for.

Honestly I need the cards to fall into place. i will get into that at a later date. 

Learning the art of networking AKA slutting myself out. AHHH yes being a whore is so worth it SMH.

Class

It's easy to work hard when your motivated and energized. But u will not always be that. Like now i don't wanna go to class. Just wanna sit here and talk to my pillow. But gotta go.

New Agent

My goal was to get a new agent to rep me across the board. Got it. Now time to get to work. She wants me to put on a little size and get more cut. Which is easier than what i was doing which was losing weight and getting cut. I figure i can put on about 10 lbs of muscle in the coming months. Drop down to around 8 percent body fat (that's the hard part)... All work and no Beer makes Noa something something *from simpsons.* I have to also get new head shots. I hate taking pictures. Also hate spending money on the pictures.

Next goal is to look for a Manager. Don't know where to start with that one. But screw it.

writing

I have been writing his screenplay for more than 2 years now. It has changed a million and one time. I feel like it can be an amazing idea. Issue is thAt I go through these pockets where I can not think of. Damn thing to write. The characters seem to entertained by laughing at my less than expedient progress. The characters r developed I have a beginning and end and 3 acts. Issue is that I want this to be perfect. So I will write and think "this isn't a classic" become frustrated and put it down for months on end.

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A Fighter was asked. "what do you believe in?"
His response was "I believe in myself."
This is so simple but so perfect. This is what i will live by. This is what i will die by

Next goal

Now that I have signed with an agent my focus is to get in great shape. Course I work out constantly. But i have to crank it up even more.  Twice a day on my days off. She also wants me to getting bigger. which sucks cause its just going to send me into a Type casting situation as the "big guy." I want more. MORE! I need a Manager now. And my goal is to be able to quit my hellish day job by june

Signing day

So FINALLY after Millions of years (seems like) living in L.A doing this acting thing. Got myself a Theatrical agent. ITA L.A. The other agent (who shall remain nameless) sucked. I pretty much got all of my own auditions. Then they would call and say "hey got you an audition." Water under the bridge. They where just Commercial anyway. Now Rep. across the board. One interesting thing in the audition I read for a mock Burger King Commercial. Then she wanted me to read it "gangster style" more hood. So i did. She said naw naw more hood. I am thinking to myself. Is this woman tellin me to act like a NIG? I said it's a burger king com. there is no hood in the lines you trippin.

In the beginning

This is the beginning of my shameless self promotion. Chronicling my life while struggling to make it in Hollywood. Ah yes. Hollywood. A bastard mixed in a riddle mixed in some shit. Gotta love it.