Staying

I have decided to stay in L.A. for yet another year without going home. The reasoning is because I WONT go home again until i succeed. Two pretty decent auditions tomorrow. One for a Feature film. I will see what will come of it

Writers Block

It's over. I am back writing ballz deep into this thing!

Mediocrity

Today I had two major auditions. One of them was for a series pilot for ABC. I had a lo to say about this subject. But All I can say is. I NEED A FREAKIN BREAK. I can't keep spinning my wheels in this abyss of me mediocrity

Rock

This has been an eventful week. Landed a role in a short film that I auditioned for two weeks ago. I am not sure what character I will be playing but screw it. Then have a major audition for a pilot on ABC. I never get too high or too low. This could be my problem. I drown my emotions too much. I see them as weakness when it is what makes us human. I rarely get excited and in this situation I try not to allow myself to reach a sense of anticipation (once again sign of weakness). I have to learn to let go. I have spent a large number of my years on earth trying to be an android. A rock.